Christmas past.
Every year I tell myself I’ll do a post about Christmas, about my mum and how she died a few days before Christmas.
Every year the date comes and goes and I don’t draw anything.
Because I can’t draw anything remotely near how it feels.
Posted on December 30, 2012, in Uncategorized and tagged death, Doodlemum, Drawing, Family, Illustration, Life, Pen and Ink, Sketchbook. Bookmark the permalink. 29 Comments.
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There are no words, and although I know just how much it is not the same, because it isn’t for me either, as your Nan passed at this time of year too… but I do know they are truly around us in spirit love… not gone… not lost… and certainly never ever forgotten. They attend and watch over us all still… I know it… and your mum is so very proud of you… I know that too, as indeed am I. Much love and warmth to you my precious heart. xxxxx
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I am so sorry. There’s nothing else to say. Hugs to you from Alabama!
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No words are finding me…… But I do believe she is with you and your family in spirit. I know that sounds lame. Love never dies…. but I know that does not help you feel the loss any less. 😦
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Hugs.
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So sorry for your loss. A picture of someone blowing out the sun? Or a big deep hole in your living room floor with little girl you sat looking up lost with a miniature tree and gifts, rest of family peering in.
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Hi Angie, your sketch is a very poignant one today and I think gently captures a degree of how you feel. I’m sorry to hear about your beloved mum; 6 years ago my mum also died not long before Christmas. I miss her everyday but especially at Christmas. I see my mum everyday in robins and rainbows – she loved both and they appear in my life almost daily as a constant but reassuring reminder. Would it help to draw happy memories of your mum at this time of year? Sketch and honour the memories of the times you had with her when you were a child, when you were growing up as a teenager, celebrating all those special occasions as well as all those funny family moments you had with her just as you so generously share your own familymoments with us each day ? I’m sure the sketched memories would be loved and treasured by your own children as much as we love those of yours 🙂
Happy New Year and wishing you the best for 2013 – can’t wait for your book in February 🙂
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But you have done. You have drawn how life goes on.
M
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Blimey, you’ve got me…..thank you….I think it does doesn’t it? Somehow I did….
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Just shows what a strong and wise woman you really are. 🙂
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Your drawing are lovely & she woluld be proud. I lost my mum last year & I found this Christmas equally as hard as last year. My children are 6, 4 & 2 so my biggest loss is that they only experirenced their only nana, my lovely mum for such a short time in their lives.
Hope 2013 brings you joy & happiness xxxx
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I’m so sorry Sarah, I hope 2013 is a happy and peaceful one for you. xxxxx
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Big cwtch from me and all good wishes for the New Year x
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Thank you Marie, sending you a little cwtch too xxxxx
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Of course not. But I´m sure she would be proud of you as a mum, you show us so much love and tender in your draws…I´m sure you are such a good mum because of her! Thak counts!
Hugs
~inês, Lisboa.
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I sympathise. My mum died last year, three days after her birthday and two days before mine. What had always been a fun and happy time is now one of reflection and memories. My thoughts are with you. x
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Thank you Elaine xxx
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My Dad died on Christmas Eve, twelve years ago. It does get easier.
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Hugs xxx
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Rightbackatchya 🙂
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It never gets easier, take comfort in that you are never alone and are surrounded by love from your family and friends. Wishing you a very happy 2013.
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Thank you so much Holly xxx
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It’s so painful, isn’t it? Dadinlaw died a few days ago and I found it very hard to blog until today. But life DOES go on. Blwyddyn Newydd Dda 🙂
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Hugest of hugs Rosie, xxxxxx
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Thanks Angie and big hugs backatcha 🙂
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I feel the same about New Year’s Day and even though it has been many, many years, I do still think of her on that day but I promise you it does get easier, especially with the children around as they usually keep you so busy you don’t have time to brood.
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Nothing to add, just hugs and sympathy across the ether xx
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Christmas must be so bittersweet, I can’t even begin to imagine.
Behind on your blog (and everyone’s blogs .. damn this self-employed lark) but hoping you had a nice Christmas, and that 2013 is as prosperous for you as 2012!
x
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I just found this today, days away from what would have been my son’s 18th birthday. We lost him in a car accident 8 years ago. I know the feeling of having nothing to describe how you feel. Hugs to you for the loss of your mother.
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